sirenes

Later, after Sayaka leaves, Mau will find a letter on his bed:


Dear Mau,

Thank you for everything. That's to all of Sapphire! I'll make sure to tell all of you that, too. I'm really lucky. I feel like I say that all the time. But it's true. If it wasn't for all of you and Kyouko and all my friends I wouldn't still be here. (Not there because I guess I'm not anymore! But alive.)

I never told any of you guys about my memory. When I first took it I felt like I'd only be doing it because I felt guilty. You were the one who told me not to do that. After that there wasn't a time to tell anyone anymore. I don't want to do something like that just because I feel guilty, too. But it doesn't feel right to me to just leave without saying anything else. It's like I'm a hero going off to fight the Darkness, but the truth is I wasn't always a hero. I told you about witches and how they bring people despair. I turned into a witch, too. But even before I changed, I had become that kind of person.

Maybe I can still be a hero now! I'm going to try really hard! Kyouko will, too, and so will Homura. All of us messed it up back then. But I trust all of you who say people can change. If I don't believe I can, then I have no right to tell Kyouko she can, either. Right?

This memory is the one. I don't want to keep it with me, because I can never watch it again anyway. I don't know what I'd do with it. So I'm giving it to you. It's not used up yet. I'm giving it to you because you can watch it if you want to. I won't tell you you have to do it, it's your decision, but I trust you with it, and you can if you want to see. I feel like someone should see. You can show it to the others too if you think it'll be okay for them to watch. I think Red would understand it. I just want Sapphire to have it because you're my family now, and I don't want to keep secrets from my family, even if it might be better for me.

I'll talk to you on the candles soon, so I'm not going to say goodbye, okay? Just good night!


Sitting on top of the letter is a Sapphire-colored candy bracelet with six edible jewels on it, and one eaten. Eating one will play this memory.

That means only three left to go ahahaha!

The first two I just handwaved her already taking because neither is significant at this point (even though one is a huge sig pos in canon). But if I'm doing writeups I may as well go for it anyway! BRIEFLY.

( memories 40 and 41 )


42 though is ACTUALLY VITALLY IMPORTANT and heavy spoilers so here it is. (It also requires a brief explanation of how I am handling this memory/the reason why it's cited as being from both the manga and anime).

( SO! also warning for extreme misogyny and misogynistic language yes )


THIS MEMORY MAY OR MAY NOT CAUSE SAYAKA TO TURN INTO A WITCH so that is something I need to contact people about ha ha \o/ It could go either way really depending on what we want to play with and how it all shakes out. So there may be an emergency heart game or something in the future . . . or maybe she'll be talked down from this one and manage to push through it without giving in to despair. This is pretty much the last seriously fucked up thing she has to remember so if it doesn't happen now, she is SAFE.

Only one memory to write up oh my LORD.

( talking to Madoka about Kyouko in ep 6 )


This is all stuff Sayaka already knew, but it does help fill in the blanks of why she hated Kyouko and Homura so much, and also why she became so determined to never accept help or do anything selfish, which she already knows led to her downfall. :') YEP.

Quick and dirty! I love writeups I don't need to canon review for.

In episode 2 Sayaka thanks Kamijo for teaching her about classical music and mentions how she's surprised people with her knowledge before, because she comes off as pretty dumb otherwise. This is that memory! I'm going to headcanon that it's happened more than once, but in this instance it was a teacher of hers at school, probably when she was 12ish, and she wasn't doing that well in the class and then one day she happened upon the teacher in a break room or something and he was listening to a classical piece and she identified it immediately and talked some about the composer. The teacher was shocked and treated her with some more respect after that. (She still didn't ace the class, but it didn't go that badly!)

The skill is her advanced sword fighting! Sayaka is not really a trained swordswoman, but she still pulls off a few amazing stunts in canon, like stopping Kyouko's spear with the point of her sword. This is that level of swordsmanship. Before she was mostly hacking and slashing, now she will have more finesse and better aim and faster reflexes in a sword fight. YAAAAAAY.

EDIT: I apparently never wrote up her last skill either, whups!

Skill #7 was her ability to ignore pain. Kyuubey tells her in canon that if she pushes herself she can do this, but that it's not a good idea, and then of course she goes and does it anyway because Issues. Basically she is able to take a lot of punishment and push through it without flinching by sort of just . . . forcing herself mentally to not acknowledge that she's getting hurt. Her body automatically heals itself when it's injured as well (though less so in Aather), so under canon circumstances this would make her almost indestructible . . . if she actually took care of her Soul Gem. In Aather she does, but her healing factor is also not as good, so! It kinda balances out in different ways.

Sayaka is questing for something special for Sapphire and needs some helpers! She'll go around finding people ICly but I also wanted to throw this out here on the Network in case anyone is interested in having their character help out with this!

Here is her quest from Brother Deer:

Give these [foody marble things] out, to as many as you can! They must swallow it.

If they are one who is separated from someone they care for - brother, sister, family, friend, teammate, or others - they will feel cold, perhaps even alone, as if they were swimming bare in the dark night.

It will only last a day or two, keeyahaha. However... if they go hand to hand, touch to touch with another, they will feel warmth.

SO BASICALLY. This is an excuse for your characters to get snuggles. :3 She has several of these (the number wasn't specified, she's supposed to give them to as many people as possible) and I wouldn't mind threading with people she doesn't know as well as CR for this, so!

If you want to help, you can jump me here, or let me know you want to thread in the future, or whatever \o/

TL;DR IF YOU WANT TO HELP SAYAKA WITH A QUEST AND ALSO HAVE A CUDDLY CHARACTER, JUMP ME OR OTHERWISE LET ME KNOW!

EDIT:

However!

If there somehow is someone who does not feel cold, who is... satisfied, fulfilled with those here... the bubble they swallowed will come back out of them - bright and glowing. If you find any, keep these and bring them back with the pouch.

There's this too, oops. XD JUMPED THE GUN. So if your character doesn't miss anyone then they are also eligible to help!

Sayaka's easiest writeup because it's only of the only ones I don't need to actually rewatch part of an episode for! YEAH!

In one episode we get a flashback to how Sayaka first met Kamijo. She was a little girl--I have no idea how old she's supposed to be in the flashback or whether there's canon for that information, but I would estimate she's about six--and she and her parents are at a concert watching Kamijo play the violin. It's LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT as Sayaka stares up at him on stage from her spot in the audience with big shiny shoujo eyes.

I assume this is the first time they met, although it's not outright stated, but it's definitely the first time she hears him play. Ever since then she's been in love with him and pursuing him in her quiet supportive way that he does not at all notice. :'D

That's all that happens in the memory, though! She'll remember now why she likes him so much and how they met, but she's beyond the point in Aather where it'll bring back super serious dere for him.

Look ma only one memory!!!

( UNDER THE CUT )

HEY GUYS I wasn't around for the Darkness stuff and neither was Sayaka! :B The timing worked out so that she was on a quest with Columbine at the time it was going on, so we're just going to say that her witch-fighting quest had her out that entire time since I didn't really want to bring her back right in the middle of it (and was very busy this weekend anyway). So, Sayaka was MIA for Days 136 and 137 (though it doesn't feel like it was that long to her). She returns with two Grief Seeds, hooray.

She did leave a note with Sapphire explaining that she would be with Columbine!

This one's cut for lots of s-s-spoilers!

( oh no it's sad )

So yeah this is going to go super well!

WHY AM I ALWAYS BEHINDDDDDD

Skill #4 is enhanced physical abilities! WHAT IT SAYS ON THE TIN. This is what allows her to do shit like jump far, be stronger, be faster, etc. as she is in her battles as a magical girl. Basically it just makes her more athletic and there's probably a magical component too that allows her to make some of those crazy magical girl leaps, but that'll drain her due to powercap.

Memory #13 is hearing about Kyouko's wish from Kyouko. KYOUKO WROTE THIS UP ONCE BUT I CAN'T FIND IT IN HER JOURNAL SO I WILL DO IT. This is in episode 7:

Sayaka is in bed moping, asking herself how she can possibly face Kyousuke (because she's just found out that her body is dead, though this memory doesn't include that information). Kyouko comes to her window and tells her to stop moping because they need to talk. As they walk, Kyouko asks her if she regrets "being turned into this," and says she's okay with it because she needed this power. Sayaka says they're "paying for what they got," and Kyouko agrees, saying that's why she lives only for herself, without regrets. SAYAKA DOESN'T BUY IT.

They head into a run-down, abandoned church, where Kyouko offers Sayaka an apple; when Sayaka tosses it away, Kyouko threatens to kill her if she ever wastes food again, holding her up by the throat. Then Kyouko begins her tragic backstory: her father was a preacher in this very church, but his followers and church didn't believe in his ideals, and began to abandon him. He was excommunicated, and Kyouko's family became so poor that they didn't have enough food. Kyouko makes her wish with Kyuubey: to force people to listen to her father's teachings. Her wish is granted and their lives turn around-until her father learns the truth about Kyouko's contract, goes insane, and kills everyone in the family except Kyouko, who vows never to use her powers for the good of others again.

She tells Sayaka that wishing for hope creates equal despair, and urges Sayaka to care only for herself without wasting her energies on others the way she did. Sayaka calls her on the fact that Kyouko cares for her despite claiming to only live for herself; Kyouko says she can't stand to watch Sayaka repeat her mistakes and pay too much back to the world without caring for herself. Sayaka apologizes for misunderstanding the kind of person Kyouko is, but insists that she will use her power to do good and won't ever regret helping someone else with her wish. When Kyouko can't tell Sayaka where she got the apple she offered her earlier, Sayaka starts to leave, explaining that's why she can't eat it, and Kyouko yells after her that no one else can ever understand the life of a Puella Magi. Sayaka says she'll fight the way she wants, invites Kyouko to fight her again if they get in each other's way, and leaves. :'D

OKAY MEMORY #14 IS MUCH SHORTER, it's being saved by Mami from the witch's maze in episode 1! Sayaka and Madoka are cowering in the maze when suddenly the familiars attacking them are destroyed by THIS MYSTERIOUS BEAUTIFUL UPPERCLASSMAN who recognizes they're second years from Mitakihara and then HENSHINS! into a magical girl, summons a whole bunch of guns, and destroys the familiars, freeing them from the maze. NOT MUCH HERE just kyaa kyaa Mami!! I think the confrontation with Homura after that is technically part of this memory, but not much happens there either, just it being clear that Mami and Homura don't get along. There's also Mami healing Kyuubey, and Kyuubey propositioning them to become magical girls for the first time. :')

CAUGHT UP WOO!